When It Hurts Too Much

When we think of “sad,” we think of tragedies happening, people dying, hope being lost. I want to tell you a story about a different kind of sad, perhaps the most tragic of all, which is found in Matthew 8: 28-34 in the Bible. Bear with me as we explore a story of sadness on our journey of hope.
In this story, Jesus goes to a place called the “region of the Gadarenes.” I confess, I don’t know much about this place, but I do know that there were two demon-possessed men who immediately came out to taunt Jesus. They knew who Jesus was and asked why He was there, “to torture us before God’s appointed time?
They knew Jesus had power over them and that He was going to order them out of the two men’s bodies, so they begged Him to send them into some pigs nearby. Jesus did so, and the demons caused the pigs to run away, plunging to their death over a steep hillside and into a lake.
You would think this is a good thing. You would think that the people would be celebrating the release of two men who are now free of demon-possession. You would think the people would beg Jesus for more of His healing power.
But not these people. Instead, they begged Jesus to go away and leave them alone. 
And I asked myself, “Do I ever do that?
At first, I want to say, “No, never. I would never do that.” But then, I think of the times when Jesus is probing into my heart, touching the bruised and wounded areas, asking me to yield something to Him.
And I find myself saying, “Go away, Lord, it hurts too much. You’ve done enough. I can’t take it any more.”
“No, Lord, I can’t do that. Please make it go away.”
“Please no, Jesus, you are doing too much. It hurts. Please no more, please go away.”
“You are asking too much. You are digging too deep, Lord. It hurts, please, stop. Please, go away.”
You may have said the same things.
You may want to say those very things as Jesus begins to dig a little deeper into your heart to remove the hurtful things in order to help you see the hope He wants to give.
Sometimes hope is hard-won. It is realized only after we have come to the end of ourselves, when all our dreams and false hopes have been taken away. And it hurts. Deeply.
We just may find ourselves saying, “No more, Lord, it hurts too much. I can’t do that. I can’t go any further.”
Yet Jesus knows the way to true HOPE in our lives. It’s in this digging and excavation of our souls that He begins to plant the seeds of true hope.
And we have to be willing to let it happen. We have to have courage and be brave, and say, “Yes, Lord, this hurts. But I know you have good things on the other side. I know you are trustworthy. You died to save me, and I trust you.”
“Yes, Lord, you can dig a little deeper. It hurts, but it is the only way I will begin to give up the things that don’t do me any good, anyway. It is the only way to have more of You. Yes, Lord, yes.”
When we are looking for true HOPE in our lives, we must be courageous and brave. We must let the Savior of our souls into the door of your hurting hearts. We must let Him in to do the work of healing and hope, even if it brings pain at first. It seems too hard, too painful.
But you can do this. You are not alone. We are in this together, and we will hold hands and link arms in our journey of finding hope. We will fight against the evil forces in our lives and let Jesus claim the victory. We will say, “Yes, Lord, please come in. We are desperate for you.”
To join some more courageous Jesus-followers on this path of finding real HOPE, meet us at God-Living Girls, an online encouragement group for women with chronic illness and pain, as we start Discovering Hope by Cindee Re. This journey begins tomorrow and will last for 8 weeks as we delve into the place of true hope in our lives. In this group, you will find compassion and help from other women who know what it feels like to lose their hopes and dreams because of chronic illness. You will also see what real HOPE looks like in the lives of women who have been there, done that, bought the tee-shirt. So, please join us on this journey of finding real hope for your life. We will link arms, and we will do this together.


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Hi! My Name is Laurie, and I am a wife, mom, nurse, and patient living with fibromyalgia. I understand first-hand what life is like with chronic pain and illness. My passion is to help provide others with the spiritual encouragement and resources that I so desperately needed when I was first diagnosed. Please join us on the blog and Facebook page for regular encouragement and hope. Welcome!